Something For You

MaryGrace,

I know what has happened over the last few months has been rough on our relationship and that we agreed to hold off on our anniversary. However I wanted to acknowledge it somehow and this is sorta what's left over of the present I said you "ruined" when you got an iphone. Not that it was all that very ready anyway, but I took whatever I had and put it here and turned it into this. It was an android app inspired by that book you made me for christmas one time called "100 things I love about you". I really liked that gift and have always wanted to do sometime similar for you without being a copycat. If we do ever celebrate our anniversary for real though, I have a real present to Id like to give you that I think you'd like.
I don't remember a lot from the day when you and me officially began our relationship. I couldn't tell you what we talked about or what you were wearing but I do know when we both went to a movie to see Harry Potter, I was too scared to hold your hand or even look at you for most of the time. In the beginning of our relationship and before I was scared about allot of things. I was terrified when you asked me out, I put my phone under a couch in the front living room and pretended I lost my phone. I don't remember how long I left it there but I eventually got it out and agreed to go out with you. I was too scared to say I love you the first time, and you a basicly told me to say it. I was too scared to kiss you the first time I considered doing it and I only did it on the cheek. You corrected my mistake and made me try again. Above everything, I was very conflicted about talking to you for the first time. I didn't think you would like me and so many scenarios were probably going through my head, almost all being negative. However, obviously I got over my social anxiety and sat down and talked to you, and I would consider myself to be a lunatic if I said I regretted it. You have brought so much joy to my life MaryGrace. Now my fears and social anxiety have brought this relationship to a point that I do not desire in anyway. I want us to be able to get past it, but whatever happens, being with you has been wonderful and I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world.
These things below are things that helped define the love I feel for you today, they make me smile when I think of them, and contain other observations about our relationship:

The way you were able to make me love you more from the other side of the world. Which is one of the sweetest things you have ever done.

The single night we were able to spend in each other's arms.

The way I feel when I'm with you is something I look forward to every time we are going to have a date.

How you've supported me through everything I do.

The time you've spent with me and my family.
My uncle's halloween parties.

Taking a picture with Santa a few times.

Other christmas things.

Or teaching dance to Morgan.
Getting rained out at my grandma's birthday party.
Celebrating my birthday,
My siblings, and even yours
This parade, and probably a lot of other things I don't remember and/or don't have pictures of.

You were always willing to come spend time with my family
From near the beginning,
and through to the most recent precious moments.

I am also very proud to call you my girlfriend because of what you have done and who you are MaryGrace.
What you have done on a stage,
Especially your wonderful talent for dancing.
I've enjoyed watching you dance every time I've seen you. Although the competition I went to was a bit extreme to sit through.
I'm also impressed with what a good student you are (quite a bit better than me! (: ) and what career you have set for yourself. I really wish I could have been there to see you graduate.
I love your giving nature and your passion for what you believe is right.
Even if I don't exactly agree with it.
Its hard to believe that that goofy 13 year old girl, who I couldn't find anything better to talk about at first than trees plotting against humans, has grown up into this strong, vibrant, positive, and caring young woman.

What I love about you the most though, is spending time with you.
It feels so natural to talk to you in person. The words usually can come out of my mouth fluently instead of talking to a regular person where I don't know what I can say or I'm worried about what they'll think of me and what I just said. I love texting you, hearing about what's up with your life, what you're doing and what you're thinking about. I think I have told you just about everything that I know about myself and I'm sure you've figured out a few things I don't really know. I would like to think I know everything about you, I know I don't, but I want to keep finding out things about you. You truly are my best friend and have been for the past four years. You've helped me when I needed help, and I've tried to help when I could.
We've been friends, youth group mates, short time school mates, one time co-workers and probably a few other applicable titles...
But most of all you are my first love, my first girlfriend MaryGrace.
I love you. Deep down I know I love you, because everytime I look into your eyes I feel at home and I feel loved.
Your voice makes me smile because of all the jokes, enjoyable conversations, and loving words that it has carried.
I cherish the memory of the dances we attended together, even though you probably did more dancing at a single one then I did at all of them combined.
I look at the jewelry you wear and it reminds me of different stages of our relationship.
Earlier and less experienced
as well as latter and more serious.
But the best way for me to feel the spark of love I have for you is to hold you tight and kiss you...
It makes me feel like your mine, the warmth of your body makes me feel the warm love that you have for me and it feels wonderful. Being what it is, it is hard to describe completely in words, but regardless, I always love holding you close to me and looking into your eyes and knowing that it feels right, I know it feels perfect. 
What ever happens MaryGrace, you will always have a place in my heart.
I would love to celebrate our anniversary this year and celebrate future ones. 
Above all else though I want you to be happy.

Happy Anniversary MaryGrace,

I love you.










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